I was going to meet with that organization I mentioned a couple weeks back to discuss us partnering up for another event/speakers series.
I won’t be doing the event. As much as I want to, I simply cannot take it on. When I shared my story, I had so many wonderful people reach out to me. It was fantastic, amazing and overwhelming.
I did receive messages from people who were struggling or loved ones that needed guidance. I was always very direct when I told them I was not a doctor so all I could offer was my experience.
Doing an event to provide education and support to those who need to understand how to take care of someone struggling is needed. But I can’t do it.
Over the past few weeks I have received messages from people who were suicidal, depressed, confused or ashamed.
Those are HUGE emotions and feelings that I can’t help people navigate through. I’m not a medical professional and I’m not recovered. Recovering yes. Recovered no.
I need to be better and further into my journey in order to be able to cope with messages of such desperation.
This event would introduce a whole new group of people looking for guidance. I don’t feel that I am strong enough to take that on. I need to be well before anything and I don’t want to come across as someone with all of the answers.
Don’t get me wrong. I will eventually plan this event. But right now is not the right time.
Thank you for understanding and all of your love and support.
If I’m going to do an event; I want to do it right. Not a half ass job. It deserves 150% of my attention and I know I can’t give that right now.
There are many places to get help. And here is a great place to start: