I did my speaking engagement last night and it went better than I thought it would.
I wasn’t nervous. I was proud, excited and happy to share the truth.
I had such a great, amazing, terrific turnout. Family and friends supported me and really made me feel special. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I really love you all.
My poor mother. The image of her crying while my cousin rubbed her back was heartbreaking. As a mother I know what it’s like to watch your child suffer. It is the worst, most awful thing that no parent should ever experience. I sometimes forget that I’m her child. That was very difficult to see.
I will be posting my speech this week.
In the meantime, I wanted to share something with you.
This morning I woke up, showered and got dressed. I had to take my son to basketball and pick up my other two boys. I was bloated. I haven’t used the washroom in a few days so my stomach was protruding and was very uncomfortable.
Yikes. But after everything I read last night and everything I have thought about leading up to last night I certainly wasn’t about to act on these urges and temptations.
As I said in my speech – choices. I have the power to choose.
I had two choices today as I felt so awful.
- Take laxatives and feel empty and not bloated.
- Change the sweater.
I changed the sweater I was wearing. It clung to me and I knew it would bother me all day and extenuate my stomach. So I changed what I was wearing.
I told my brother about this and he said when I’m faced with these situations I have to pull a George Constanza. Do the opposite.