I’m in FLA. Me and my brothers surprised our mom for her 70th birthday. Awesome. It was simply awesome. I ended up extending my trip for a week because I have some time off and figured I might as well take advantage of the break.
Part of me was scared to do it. Being out of my comfort zone for a full week. The other part of me was thrilled to be out of my comfort zone for a full week.
I went for a walk by myself, got a coffee at Starbucks and went into a few stores. The drugstore for my fave candy – NIPS. They didn’t have! Devastating. I won’t lie to you, I walked to the laxative aisle. I looked at them, I picked them up, I priced them out. What a bargoon. But I put them down. I have been feeling bloated and uncomfortable in my skin as my body tries to readjust itself. I know exactly how I could get rid of that feeling. It would be simple.
But it would change everything. Again. I promised not to bring ED into 2017 – and I can’t. I knew that as I stood there with the bottle of poison in my hand. I couldn’t. I wouldn’t and I didn’t.
How did I feel when I left? Relieved that ED remained in 2016.