I’ll tell you what sucks.
Having drive, ambition and motivation sucks.
You are probably saying to yourself “What the hell is she talking about?!”
I am not, nor will I ever be someone that sits back and is just happy with the way it is. I want it the way I want it. I want to love where I am, what I do, who I’m with, feel satisfied and be a contributing person to society and most importantly to myself.
Ever feel like something is missing in your life? That you have a bigger purpose and can’t quite figure it out? Well that is me.
I know many people can go to work each day and be content with what they do – and that’s great. I am not one of those people. Don’t get me wrong – nice boss, nice company…it’s all lovely and nice where I work.
But there is a bigger picture out there for me. A calling. Something I am suppose to be doing. Rob even talked about it tonight. He wishes I could be writing, blogging, public speaking – something like this as a profession. Those are my passions. I just need to find a way to make it a reality. I would love to write a book about my experience, hell and my journey. I want to talk to people and share what I have been through, what I have learnt, connect and make changes.
I have so many dreams.
I will not sit back and let time pass me by without doing what I want. I have already allowed ED to take away so much time.
I don’t know what that means, but I certainly am going to figure it out!