I didn’t have a great week. Not awful, not terrible – just not one of my better weeks.
But I have to remember many things about my journey:
Eating Disorder recovery is the most difficult challenge I have ever faced and most likely will be one of the hardest things I ever do. It’s uncomfortable and it sucks sometimes. Some days I will feel hopeless and some days I will feel on top of the world, and this is all part of the process.
There are really, really hard days when I feel as if I want to give up some days. This is okay. This is normal.
But, please don’t worry – this will take a while. It has to take as long as I need it to take. In recovery, you can slip backwards but then take giant leaps forward. And I have. I’ve been leaping so far forward that the slips can’t take me back to where I started.
So even though this week wasn’t great – I know that next week will be amazing. And that makes me happy. I feel such a sense of freedom when I know what the future without ED holds for me.