Don’t worry Nike, I’m not stealing your slogan.
When I met with Simone this week I told her that I wanted to get into printing personalized stationary, note cards, tags etc….I explained what my “business plan” looked like.
She gave me this glare that she often gives me. It’s a half smile, half WTF (why the fuck are you thinking so much) look. And as I continued to explain how I was going to execute this plan, she stopped me and said “Just do it! Enough with the thinking and planning. That will all come. Just start it.”
And so I did.
I didn’t want to think anymore. I think allllllllllllllllll the time. Alllllllllllllllll day. And the problem with these project that I always want to start is that I think wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy too much and I always find reasons why I shouldn’t do it.
Enough thinking. More doing.
If I can do that with things I enjoy, I have to be able to do it with things I hate. Namely an Eating Disorder.
Stop thinking about recovery.
Fuck it. Just do it.
I wish it was that easy. But I have to start somewhere. So by taking a chance and proving to myself that I can do something I enjoy, be good at it, succeed and take chances, I give myself the courage to do whatever I want.
I am suppose to do one thing every single day towards recovery.
Today is me starting my own business. Taking a chance that I normally would never do.
Maybe I’ll send ED a personalized note card telling him to Fuck Off! He can be my first customer!