So, I went to see S today.
Great visit. We do know each other from the good old High School – Shark City, Barracuda days. At first I wasn’t sure how that would play out. Weird? Awkward?
Not at all. It really was like sitting around with a friend. But someone who knows exactly what I’m going through because she too suffered many years ago. She’s an experienced Life Coach and Nutritionist. We talked a lot and there were things she said that made me look at ED a bit differently. Therapy – I have had and learn a lot about ED, but I can certainly see a benefit to a life coach.
She asked me what I eat in a day.
“Would you be okay with your kids eating that for the day?” No way.
Her purpose is for me to find me. Who I am. What do I like. Get back my identity.
She gave me homework:
- I have to come up with a list of things I would like to see myself doing in a year. One thing she didn’t want me to say was that I wanted to get rid of my eating disorder. We are not focusing on what we are taking away, but rather what I will gain.
- Every day I have to write two things I like about myself.
Hmmm….1. I like my motivation. I hated working at CAA and was absolutely miserable. Many people said I was lucky to get paid for doing nothing. But, that was not satisfying so I did something about it and found a new job that I am incredibly happy with. 2. I like the mother that I am to my children. I am involved, I am loving and most importantly I always keep my promises to them. They always tell me I’m the best mom so I must be doing something right.