I was looking at the journal I have been keeping and came across this entry:
Today is July 6, 2014. I slipped. Damn. After 10 years, I slipped. Not once…a few times. I may slip again. I am worried that I will meet up with ED again on a permanent basis. I don’t want to and hopefully that will be enough.
Today is January 5th, 2015. ED became a regular in my life again. Awful, just awful. The last time I took was on December 31, 2014. It was the worst I have ever reacted. I was severly ill for 48 hours. I actually considered going to the hospital because I was so sick. I was in the washroom dozens of times and even 24 hours after I took, I was throwing up because I was still nauseous. I missed out two full days with my family.
Sad. Just so sad.